Friday started out kind of rough. I woke up in a lot of pain, coming from my back/bum again. This time, it’s my left SI joint (near the tailbone) that hurts. It had been my right SI joint bothering me since the beginning of March. The right side feels mostly better. Both sides of my hips are sore, which is fairly new. I had done some activity Wednesday and Thursday to test how I would feel, prior to my Orthopedic specialist follow up Friday afternoon. I wanted to know if I could handle going back to work, after being off and resting for 3 weeks.
Before I went to my appointment, I stopped and picked up a few groceries. I popped the trunk to place them inside. Normally, there’s an automatic lift when I open it, but apparently it’s not working correctly. I pushed it up myself – and it seemed secure and like it was going to stay up – but nope. Suddenly it fell down, and the edge cracked me right on the bridge of my nose! Ouch! It hurt like a mofo!! I saw stars, and my eyes began watering profusely. By the time I got in the car, I realized I was bleeding all over the place. There was a small cut on my nose, and the area was already beginning to bruise.
Between my tears, I had to laugh. I often have weirdo accidents! My last one (months ago) was gouging my eye with my own tweezers, and I ended up in Urgent Care with a bad corneal abrasion. Plus, being pregnant and looking like I was in a fist fight = not good. But funny! It’s embarrassing though, and I hope I don’t have to see anyone for a few days. I’m glad it’s the weekend, and I have nowhere to go. 😉
Not sure if you can see the extent of it in this pic. The bruising goes down the bridge of my nose and to the sides, even under my eyes a bit. Some of those darker shadows are just from the lighting. I look kind of evil in this pic. LOL.
Anyway, I went to my appointment, already feeling poorly – and it was not good news. The Orthopedic specialist believes I am unable to return to work – at all (at least while pregnant). I truly didn’t expect to hear that, even though I know it was a possibility. He was glad I tested myself with some activity over the past couple days. It gave him a better idea of what I could handle (which is not much). Just a slight touch to my left SI joint brought on tears. He said he doesn’t want to do another MRI because we already know it’s the same thing I had in my right SI joint. The only thing that will help is rest.
He explained the further along I get (and the larger I get) there will be more pressure and discomfort added to my pelvis. Any type of strenuous activity will only irritate the area further. He also said we need to treat my condition like “fine china”, since I am pregnant (and high risk). Any extra stress (like pain) could be detrimental to myself and my baby. Once he said that, it put aside any doubts I had about going back to work. Not that I had a choice, but it made me realize he was right.
Even so, I was very upset about realizing I would no longer have a job. My career that I love so much. It’s a huge part of my life. I love what I do, I enjoy the patients, and I adore my boss and coworkers. I called my boss to update her, and she asked for my letter of resignation. After speaking with some friends, I decided I had better talk to Human Resources before doing anything. I’ll give them a call on Monday. It doesn’t seem fair to lose my job over a medical problem. I’m not going to stress or fight about it, but it’s best to see what my options are (if anything).
Even if they could hold my position, I only have about 1-2 weeks of Short-Term Disability pay left and 9 weeks of FMLA. That wouldn’t cover what I need. Plus, in a few months, I’d be taking maternity leave. I wouldn’t be back until November maybe? And that’s assuming my back is better right away, which I’ve heard doesn’t always happen right away after giving birth.
My boss said she needs to post my position immediately, so they can hire someone else. I definitely understand that, but it was kind of heart breaking. I got off the phone with her and sat there bawling. The finality of closing that chapter in my life hit me very hard. Plus hormones and everything. I’m sure I can re-apply in the future, but there are no guarantees. I do have a great work history there, and my boss would definitely give me a glowing recommendation.
We will work it out somehow. Andy’s new job is great, and we have his insurance now. Maybe this has happened for a reason. I feel more at peace about it today. I’m looking forward to so many wonderful things to come. I will have time to prepare for my baby’s arrival, and spend all the time I want with him when he gets here. There are too many positives to focus on the negatives. My nose still hurts like a mofo though. LOL. 😉