First, thank you all for reading my novel in my last post. I’m feeling a lot more positive about things now. It just took a couple days to sink in. And it’s been a tough week. I think this time of rest will be very good for myself and little Graham. Emotionally AND physically, I could use a break. Plus, you never know – sometimes these things happen for a reason. And anyway, I have SO much to look forward to. Life is good, no matter what speed bumps come along. It always has a way of working out.
My Grandma was laid to rest, right next to Grandpa yesterday. So many people came to pay their respects. The service was beautiful. Grandma’s Pastor (and good friend of 14 years) performed the service. He knew exactly what to say to highlight Grandma’s life and what a good person she was. My Dad read a beautiful poem, and there wasn’t a dry eye in the church. The family created picture boards to display all the wonderful memories of Grandma’s life. There were so many lovely photos of herself, her husband (my Grandpa, who passed 14 years ago), children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren.
They even mentioned our baby boy in the obituary, as “one great-grandchild on the way in August.” I was incredibly touched that they included him. I know Grandma would have loved that. All of the family members were rejoicing about our little miracle. Our baby boy seemed like a source of happiness and hope for the family. It kind of surprised me. People that I hadn’t seen for years were coming up to me to talk about the baby. Even my stoic uncles were crying when they spoke to us – about how happy they are for us, and how sad they were that Grandma won’t be able to meet our son. They said Grandma spoke of us and the baby often, how we tried for so long, and how excited she was for us. My cousin told me that Grandma’s eyes would light up whenever she spoke of my pregnancy. My heart felt so full of love and gratitude. I can’t even explain really how I felt.
It was difficult to hold it together. I cried…a lot. So many emotions, memories, good thoughts, and sad thoughts. And my heart broke for my family, seeing them all break down. Although it was tough, it was a good experience for us all to be together and let those emotions out. The best part was – everyone was civil!! No drama!! Now, 2 people did try to bring up the drama to me. However, I stood my ground and simply said, “Let’s not talk about that right now.” And all was well. I don’t know if they will ever resolve their conflicts, but at least we had a beautiful day honoring Grandma’s memory. Thank you God, for giving us Grandma…and for giving us a good day together as a family.