It was 3 weeks ago today, that I got my BFP @ 11dpo! These past few weeks have been the most exciting, happiest, and terrifying weeks of my life. Everyday, I wake up and say, “I can’t believe I’m still pregnant! Thank you, God!” Now that I’m feeling more changes in my body, it has begun to feel a little bit more real. Every time I feel something new, it amazes me. And seeing the heartbeat Friday, was so reassuring and made it all seem more real for both Andy and I.
I want this soooo soooo badly for all my friends dealing with infertility. I do carry around guilt. I pray for everyone, and I wish there was more I could do to help. I just keep saying, if it can happen for me – it can happen for you! And I just don’t want to hurt anyone. I am so thankful for the support you all have given me. I want to return that support a hundred times over for you. If anyone has any questions or wants to talk, please email me at Baby4Lisa(at)gmail(dot)com. I will always have time for you, no matter what.
Most of the time though, this all still feels like a dream. I’m afraid I’ll wake up, and it won’t be real! Even though I was hopeful, I never actually imagined this happening. We’ve never had so much continued good news before! We don’t know what to do with ourselves! It’s like winning the lottery. It’s better than that though. You never think it will be YOU. It’s the highest high, the biggest reward, and we’ve spent half the time in shock. We’ve been practically delirious LOL!
Like I said before, sometimes I find myself waiting for the bad news to come. At any given moment, it could all change. That’s the most frightening thought. Bad news and disappointments are what we know. We are conditioned, after all these years. However, I am letting myself get excited, letting myself feel like this IS real, and I’m already connecting with this little miracle in my belly. So is Andy, and I don’t want either of our hearts broken. But without being able to control it, we’ve fallen in love already. Scary and beautiful.
I was telling Andy yesterday that I don’t want to look back on my pregnancy and regret being in fear all of the time. I want to make the most of it all, enjoy it, live it, love it, and make amazing memories. So that’s exactly what we’re doing! Oh, you should see Andy right now. I wish I could record him when he talks about our baby! He is completely adorable. I never realized that he wanted this as badly as me, actually! We will have a healthy baby in August, and that’s that. We’re all in.
In other news, I have a nasty sinus infection! I went to the doctor on Thursday and got antibiotics (Amoxicillin). The doctor wrote me off work Thursday and Friday, so I could get some extra rest. I thought I’d feel more like 100% by now, but I’m still struggling with congestion and coughing. My nose hurts like a biotch, from the inside out! I’m pretty much too scared to even take the recommended OTC meds, but I’ve taken just a couple here and there.
Other than that, I feel fantastic! My symptoms are: sore boobs and fatigue. I’m craving spicy/salty food big time! I’m still having difficulty sleeping sometimes, but most of that is nerves/excitement. I slept quite well last night, finally. My belly/bloat is growing, which makes me very happy. 🙂
I bought 2 books on Amazon!
Here is what “spot” looks like during the 6 week point…and I’ll be 7 weeks on Wednesday! No more betas, but I do have other labs and get weekly ultrasounds every Friday. I’m trying to keep my Pregnancy Updates page up to date. Is that page difficult for you guys to load with all the pictures and stuff? I was thinking of dividing it up?