**13dpo update: Tests are BFN. Beta is zero. I’m having a hard couple of days for some reason. Emotional. Feel like giving up. Don’t really feel like writing much.**
**Afternoon update: BETA is zero. It’s okay though. Good to know. My tests today matched that.**
I would have gotten a beta at 10dpo yesterday, but I couldn’t find a place to get it done on Sunday. Also, I didn’t erase any temps or mess with anything on my chart. The temps that are missing were days where my sleep schedule was messed up, so the temps would not have been accurate. I wish I had those now, so my chart would be totally clear. I’m about 95% sure my ovulation day is correct though. (Just wanted to clear that up).
My temps have been increasing that past couple days, but my tests are negative now. I posted my pics from the last few days on my pee stick page. I even tweaked them a bit, so you could see there’s not a line popping out like there was at 9dpo. I guess I had bad luck that day with tests. At least this faint line crap only last about 1 day this time. I’m curious to see what the beta says, but I’m sure I already know. I don’t even want to POAS anymore, but I do want to see how this experiment plays out. Too bad I don’t have anymore cheapies, because I’d like to see if they were truly a crappy batch. Getting a new batch this afternoon sometime. Almost every batch is crappy anyway haha. They are just addicting because they’re so sensitive.
I suppose at 11dpo, with a nice looking chart, that there’s still a slight chance for a positive in a couple days. Maybe I was still in implantation mode. I’ll let you guys know with an edit in this post what the beta says, and then I’ll keep you posted if anything changes with my pee sticks. I’ll get another beta on Wednesday. Also, my luteal phase is pretty long, so I’ll probably get one final beta on Friday @ 15dpo…just in time for my 30th birthday. Ugh. Would be awesome if it was positive by then! It’s okay, whatever happens. I was angry yesterday, but I’m feeling better today. Shit happens.
Oh, and I’d love to just go get betas whenever, but my schedule is busy sometimes. Plus, the tests cost $25-ish a piece (or more depending on what lab is most convenient to go to), so I’m already going to be spending at least $75 this cycle for labs. 😦 And then I spend another $50-$75 on pee sticks, too! Whoa. Maybe I won’t pee on anymore sticks in the future. I guess that’s another reason I like the cheapies. Not to mention, my Lovenox is $120 a month — and my other meds add up, too. Even trying “naturally” is pretty darn expensive. TTC sucks! But you all know that. 🙂
Thank you all for the awesome support as always xoxo You all help me more than you know. ❤