Sorry I haven’t updated. My home computer is all torn apart while Andy repairs it. It will *hopefully* be done today when I get home from work.
I got a beta yesterday @ 13dpo. It was only 8. It’s positive…and it has to start somewhere…but the doctor said it doesn’t look good with the bleeding I’m having (obviously low beta + bleeding = not a good sign). We’ll re-check tomorrow (Saturday). While I’m fighting for this possible pregnancy, I don’t actually believe it will work out. A part of me feels hopeful, but I am fully prepared for my usual bad news. Back and forth between positive and negative. Trying to stay balanced in the middle somewhere.
It is really frustrating and embarrassing though. Me and my pitiful lines and low hcg. It feels like I’m constantly putting all my personal failures on display. It makes me not want to document any of this. I’m just so sick of being broken. I’m grateful that you all stay so hopeful for me. You know I try to be as optimistic as possible, but sometimes I feel naive/stupid for believing it will work.
So, I’m still taking all my meds…Waiting to see what will happen next. Gotta just keep hoping it will be different one day.