A good trip and an awesome appt :-)

First of all, the trip went really smoothly! We didn’t have any problems, whatsoever. I don’t know why I was worried about my car or anything else. It was a looooong drive though, and I’m still exhausted. It was completely and totally worth it!!!

I wish we had more time to sight-see and take more photos, but we were tired and focusing more on the business at hand. This is what we saw as we entered Chicago on the expressway. The huge building you see there on the left, is the tallest building in the United States (The Willis Tower, formerly The Sears Tower). Crappy cell phone camera LOL.

My friend, Lara from Twoweekwait, recommended an ahhhmazing pizza place! We had authentic, Chicago-style, deep dish pizza from Lou Malnati’s. I’ve never had anything like it! We had to eat it with a knife and fork! It was delicious! I want more!!

We stayed in a hotel about 2 miles from Dr. Kwak-Kim’s office. I didn’t even have to wait – they brought me right in and we got down to business. They already had my paperwork and records. First, I had 22 vials of blood drawn – yikes! The lady drawing my blood was really good though. She distracted me and made pleasant conversation the whole time. I didn’t even realize she was taking that much blood until she was done, and I saw all the vials beside me! Blood draws don’t bother me at all, but that’s enough to make anyone a little woozy!

Next, they brought me into an ultrasound room with a skilled technician. Their ultrasound machine is like nothing I’ve ever seen before though. It’s super high-tech. I was told to drink at least 32 oz of water before the appointment, and I wasn’t sure why….until the technician did an external ultrasound – on my actual belly! The full bladder pushed my uterus up into view. The tech explained to me that they can visualize the structure of the uterus from the outside, sometimes seeing things that they would miss with the internal (vaginal) ultrasound. I laid back and watched the whole thing on a big screen on the wall across from me.

Then the tech had me empty my bladder to do the vaginal ultrasound. I swear, the whole ultrasound process took about an hour! She took so many measurements and pictures, explained things to me, looked at every nook & cranny, and printed everything off. This machine could also measure blood flow to the uterus and ovaries, which was really neat to see. The screen was so clear, and I could hear the sound of my blood flow. I was uncomfortable, having to be “wanded” for that long, however it was so cool that I didn’t mind.

She saw that I have 5 follicles – on a natural cycle!! Holy crap! It’s some kind of “kick-back affect” from taking fertility drugs last cycle. She saw EWCM and said my lining was thick and “fuzzy” (good). The 2 bigger follicles on my left don’t seem to have a lot of blood flow around them, so it’s unclear if I will ovulate or not. I do have good blood flow to my ovaries and tubes, but I have VERY poor blood flow to my uterus. It also looks like my Endometriosis is back already (surgery was almost 5-6 months ago). My left ovary seems to be fused to my uterus, but of course they can’t say for sure. This could potentially be a problem. It might be better if I ovulate from my right side – it would function better. So that kinda sucks.

Next, I went in another exam room and spoke about my history with the Nurse Practitioner – both health history and infertility history. It is kind of difficult to explain all the treatment cycles, testing, diagnoses, and different doctors I’ve met with. I believe we got it all covered though. She performed a breast exam, too. This whole visit was extremely thorough – more thorough than I would expect.

Finally, I met Dr. Kwak-Kim. She is an older, small asian woman with a very friendly demeanor. I liked her right away. I can tell she’s extremely intelligent, as well as very caring and patient. She didn’t sugar-coat things, but she didn’t make me feel hopeless. In fact, she had some positive things to say. I really appreciate that she took the time to explain everything to me in great detail. She even drew pictures and wrote it out, so that I could fully understand it.

Dr. K’s opinion on my “poor egg quality”/high FSH/low AMH: My FSH is not even that high. I should have never been diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure – at least not yet. Low AMH is not that serious, especially considering the fact that I still ovulate and have been able to conceive many times. Most of her patients have low AMH. She said if she told everyone with low AMH to use an egg donor, there would be no babies. πŸ™‚

Dr. K’s opinion on my NK Cells: Not that big of a deal. Simply treat with Prednisone, IV intralipids, and Lovenox.

Dr. K’s opinion on the DQ Alpha + HLA match (This was the deal-breaker of me achieving pregnancy, per Dr. Sher who recommended surrogacy): There is not enough evidence to show that I cannot carry a baby. She should know because she did much of the research about this subject. There is evidence to show that there’s an increased risk of miscarriage, but it’s NOT the be-all, end-all. In her research, she tested the “products of conception” from many miscarriages and found an increased number of DQ Alpha and HLA matches, however it does not occur in all cases.

Dr. K’s opinion on my many chemical pregnancies: It does appear that I am achieving pregnancy. If my egg quality was so poor, the egg wouldn’t fertilize so often. Some chemical pregnancies could have been a poor egg or chromosome issue, but only a small percent. It looks like I have maintained some level of fertility, even with my many issues – this is a good thing. The pregnancy loss is most likely an immune response – my body is destroying the embryo shortly after implantation. Another HUGE factor is the lack of blood supply to my uterus!! I never knew of that problem before, since we don’t have ultrasound machines like that. These issues are fixable though! The drugs I mentioned above, for NK Cells, would treat the immune response. Lovenox would improve my circulation to my uterus – and I would need to start it at the beginning of my cycle. I’ve argued with my doctors for awhile about NOT waiting to start the Lovenox until the pregnancy is confirmed, because that is obviously TOO LATE! I also need to do other things to increase circulation to my uterus, naturally.

To sum it up, there’s a chance I can have a baby with MY egg, my husband’s sperm, in MY uterus! There may still be some trial and error & miscarriages/chemicals, but there is hope. Even if it’s a little bit, it’s there. She said with everything she sees right now – all my previous testing, etc – that there’s no reason to think we cannot achieve pregnancy. It’s not going to be easy, but it’s possible. She is looking at the ENTIRE picture – not just immune stuff and not just my low egg reserve. Most of my doctors seem to focus in on one of those issues. She is checking EVERYTHING. We still have to go over the results of the testing she did, just to make sure there’s not something ELSE seriously wrong. I have a follow up phone consult on 5/24/12 to get those results and come up with a treatment plan. I feel optimistic! πŸ˜€

EEK! I could write even more, but that’s a novel already LOL. I gotta get to work now. πŸ™‚


I think I’m ready! And other bits and pieces.

I have been busting my butt this week to get things done at work, as well as to prepare for our trip. I think I’m ready and well-prepared! I am thankful for all your great suggestions for our road trip! You brought up a lot of things I hadn’t thought about. πŸ™‚

My car is good to go! Yayyy! I took it in to get an oil change and tune up yesterday. I was nervous they would find something super expensive that needed repaired, but nope! Well, there were a couple things, but they can wait (nothing that would be dangerous or cause us to break down or anything)…plus, I know I can buy the parts and have someone do it for me for much cheaper. We do have a spare tire and a jack.

I have snacks, drinks, a cooler in the car, music, and a bunch of other random stuff. My questions for the doctor are typed up, and our directions to Illinois are all mapped out. We have a hotel room booked, and a friend gave us info about a couple awesome deep-dish pizza places we could try while in the Chicago area. I’m packed for the most part. I’ll just have to pack up the rest tomorrow morning before we leave. Andy hasn’t packed anything yet LOL. He waits til the last minute and throws stuff in a bag. I act like I’m preparing for the Apocalypse or something. πŸ˜‰

The main thing I’m nervous about is what the doctor will say…..

I am on DAY EIGHT of AF! Ugh! Seriously, I jinxed myself earlier this week. I thought she was almost gone. I had a day where I only had a couple tiny spots, then she started right back up again! I want to say today is the last day, but I’m not sure. I only had a tiny little bit when I wiped a couple times this morning. I guess the chemical pregnancy or my Endometriosis or something is effing up my cycle.

I asked Andy to BD with me last night (but I warned him I was spotting a little – just so he wouldn’t be like OMG what’s that), and he rejected me! He thinks it’s yucky. 😦 It made me feel pretty undesirable. I don’t ever BD while AF is here (it’s just gross to me), but spotting is not a big deal. Gosh!! haha! It’s been over a week since we last DTD. We are doing it tonight, and that’s THAT. πŸ˜‰

I’m looking forward to NIAW (National Infertility Awareness Week) next week! Are any of you planning anything special? I already tell just about anyone and everyone my story and talk about infertility in general, but I’m going to try to spread the word a little more if I can. Every little bit helps!


Please support the Family Act of 2011

As many of you know, fertility treatments are extremely expensive! There are medications, treatments, procedures, and testing that cost thousands upon thousands of dollars. For some couples, IVF (In-Vitro Fertilization) and other treatments are their only hope! Just one cycle of IVF can exceed $15, 000! Many states do not mandate insurance coverage. My state, Ohio, does thankfully….but we still have spent an unbelievable amount of money. I am grateful to have some coverage, however it is really lacking. Unfortunately, there are still so many couples out there struggling to pay 100% out of pocket! You can help though!

From Resolve.org — In May 2011 a bill to create a tax credit for the out-of-pocket costs associated with infertility medical treatment was introduced in the U.S. Senate by Senator Kirsten Gillibrand (NY) and in the U.S. House of Representatives by Congressman John Lewis (GA). Aptly named the Family Act of 2011, S 965/HR 3522 will potentially help thousands of people seek medical treatment that otherwise would be out of reach for them. RESOLVE supports this bill and needs your help getting this bill passed and made into a law. You can find more info about the Family Act by clicking here.

Please send a letter to your Senator by clicking here. And your Representative by clicking here. It’s really quick and easy. It literally took me less than 2 minutes. The letter is already formatted for you and can be directly emailed to them!


Preparing for a road trip

My beta yesterday was zero, so that’s good. AF is nearly gone, and I feel like I am almost back to normal again. πŸ™‚

My appointment with the immune specialist, Dr. Kwak-Kim is Monday 4/23/12 at 9:00am in Illinois. It’s a 14-hr round trip from Ohio. My mom was going to come along, so we could use her nice, new car and trade off on driving. She backed out yesterday though. 😦 My car is fine, it’s just older and it worries me to take it so far. It’s our only vehicle, and it’s almost paid off. I would hate for something big to go wrong, us to get stranded, and then have to put a bunch of money into it. It’ll probably be fine though, and Andy will be with me.

So I’m trying to make sure we are totally prepared for long trip. I’m a planner and a worrier LOL. We’re leaving Sunday morning around 9:00am, will probably arrive in Illinois on Sunday evening, check into a hotel, get something to eat, get some sleep, go to my appt the next morning (they said it might take a couple hours), and then head home after that.

  • I’m getting a basic tune-up and oil change on Friday. They said they would check everything out for me and make sure it’s safe & road-ready.
  • We’ll have some cash on hand but mostly use our cards. Plenty of money for gas, food, hotel, etc.
  • I’m bringing a cooler with drinks/water and some snacks.
  • I know we have a jack, but I need to check for sure that we still have a spare tire.
  • Gotta have good music. πŸ™‚
  • And then anything we’ll need for about a day and half.
  • Maybe a first aid kit, emergency supplies, or other stuff?? Ideas?

What kind of fun games do you play, or are there other things you do to stay occupied on road trips? πŸ™‚ They can be fun, but 14 hours is a long time to be cooped up with anyone in a car. I hope we don’t get snippy with each other!