Infertility/TTC comes with a lot of ups and downs. I’ve learned to roll with the punches. I know now not to get my hopes up too high, ever. Still I find myself with a lot of optimism. I have faith that God would not put the desire in my heart to be a mother, if he did not mean to fulfill it. I have to stay positive, or I wouldn’t be able to keep going.

But OMG it sucks to be sooo close and to have your dream ripped away!!!

I might have to come to terms with the path to motherhood being different than I’d hoped. It already has been a long, arduous journey, with a lot of unexpected bumps in the road. I’m not sure what comes next. I meet with Dr. Kwak-Kim soon (the 23rd), and we’ll go from there. I don’t foresee us TTC very much longer, at least not in a conventional way. Not that much of this has been very conventional. 😉 I’m leaning more and more toward donor embryo though.

Apparently, my levels have not dropped…at least not much. It’s pretty close. I’ll definitely stay on my meds and see what happens. I don’t expect a positive outcome (I have to be realistic), but I just need to be 100% sure. You can see how they were darker 8-11dpo (probably some trigger mixed in) and how they got a tad lighter, but then almost darker again? So strange.


23 thoughts on “15dpo

  1. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this… you’ve had such a hard road and I was so hoping that this was your time. I hope you find answers and a new direction, if that’s where your heart is leading… exploring the idea of donor eggs/embryos sound like a good idea b/c you are getting implantation. Love and thinking of you xoxo

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