I will update after follicle scan # 2, but first I have some stuff on my mind.
My eczema and allergies are flaring up (although they sometimes do this time of year). My skin has been breaking out, too – I seem to be inflamed. Earlier this cycle, I was itchy and swollen at times – especially on my hands. I wonder if there’s a connection between my immune system right now and having a crappy cycle. It’s something I will have to monitor. I still find it odd that I never had allergies, acne, or eczema before…up until a couple years ago, when we started fertility treatments.
I feel kinda gross. Why is my hair thinning so much?! It’s freaking me out. I look at pics from just a year ago, and my hair was much fuller with more body. Ugh. I found my first gray hair the other day!!! 😦 I’m turning 30 this year in October, WTH. My upper lip has a lot more hair growth than ever before. Is it age, or fertility treatments, or does it mean something else? I’m turning into an infertile man, with thin/gray hair, pimples, bigger boobs – oh, and pre-menopausal symptoms. Just lovely. lol 😉
Last night I was thinking to myself that I can’t take much more of these treatment cycles. I’ve been off birth control for almost 5 years, hard core trying for 40 cycles, and doing fertility treatments for like 27 months. That’s a lot of freakin’ drugs, hormones, stress, testing, monitoring, money, disappointment, etc. Only 1 month until we see Dr. Kwak-Kim. I feel like we need to do something different – and fast. I’m about ready to say eff it all, and go for “other options” sooner. I don’t know when to say, “that’s enough”. If we don’t get pregnant THIS cycle, we won’t have a baby in 2012. Yet another year. And I had such high hopes for you, 2012 – you bitch. lol 😉
Sorry to be negative, I’m just so frustrated! Plus, my hormones are raging. Infertility SUCKS. Making decisions SUCKS. My body is failing me already at such a young age, which SUCKS. Andy thinks we should go ahead with the frozen IUI for now. I think so, too. We should at least try, after all the meds and money that have already gone into this cycle. Part of me is thinking how ridiculous I am to even try. And part of me is still holding onto hope. But if you know me, I always bounce back and stay determined & optimistic. I hope I can hold onto that. I need to.