If you read my last post, I was really upset and disappointed. I keep chasing after all these leads, hoping that some doctor will have a magical answer for me. It’s not that easy though. Even when you know what is wrong. You can’t always fix it.
We know for a fact that I have Diminished Ovarian Reserve. You can visualize my follicles on an ultrasound and count them. There are not many eggs left. My bloodwork reflects that diagnosis (FSH & AMH). These are proven, known causes of infertility. Do people still conceive with this diagnosis? YES. Have I conceived with this diagnosis? YES.
What we cannot say for sure is if my egg quality is truly poor. It is only a guess. There is no way to test all of my eggs to see which ones are good or bad. Some doctors think the fact that I’m 29 and have this condition, means I have better odds than an older woman with this condition. Other doctors think it does not matter what age you are. We did do IVF, and I did produce 2 perfect embryos. It may have worked, but we did not know about my Endometriosis, Septate Uterus, or Autoimmune issues at that time.
Endometriosis is a common, known cause of infertility, as well. It can cause inflammation and many abnormal cells in the uterus, which in turn causes failed implantation. A Septate Uterus is also a well-known factor in miscarriages. Even in early losses – the embryo may try to implant on the septum, where there are not enough blood vessels to supply the growing baby. Plus, my uterus was basically closed – they had to dilate it. The doctor I met with Thursday, said my septum may have caused 1/3 of my losses – that’s a pretty big deal. My current RE believes it has been a HUGE factor for us. This is ONLY our 4th cycle since the surgery to remove/repair the Endo & Septum, so it’s too early to say whether it helped or not.
What’s on my mind the most right now…immune issues. It’s such a controversial subject – especially amongst regular REs. This new doctor I met with Thursday is willing to treat with whatever Dr. Kwak-Kim says is necessary (when I meet with her next month). I definitely want to try. Whether it’s proven or not, it will not hurt to at least try. It may even have a placebo affect on me, and put me more at ease. Who knows, it may actually be just what we need. I just hope Dr. Kwak-Kim doesn’t have more grim news, and says there’s nothing she can do to help us. I don’t really believe that. I mean, IV intralipids or something are at least worth a shot.
I am worried about egg quality though, too. This is the 2nd doctor who has said to quit with my eggs, basically. I know we would have a MUCH higher chance with donor eggs/embryos, but maybe we still have a chance. A little chance. It’s too soon after the surgery & without us trying immune treatment to say we’re ready to stop with my eggs. I did have a very kind-hearted girl offer me some frozen embryos from a successful IVF cycle. I’m so touched and excited to keep that as an option if things don’t work out.
So, all in all…I’m still kind of upset…but feeling better than I was. You can’t believe everything you hear – even from doctors. How many times have you seen them be proven wrong?! LOTS. I’m going to keep praying and hoping….for now.
My speech about infertility for the women’s group is today – EEK! I’m prepared though. Also, I’m 6dpo. My chart link is over on the side column. I’m still hoping one of those 3 beautiful follies is a good egg.