Everything in my life has been falling into place so nicely lately. Things have gotten so much better on so many levels. Not that it was terrible before, but I’m finding myself feeling more in the groove again. Lisa got her groove back?! 🙂
Emotionally, I am in a good place. I welcome a BFP, without feeling terrified of what will happen after that. I am learning to let go of past traumatic experiences. I am more peaceful and less obsessed. Do I still want a baby with all my heart and everything I have – yes! I feel like it will happen though. In due time.
Financially, we are seeing vast improvements! We would be doing even better, if we could pay off a couple more debts and stop doing fertility treatments. Andy graduates in a few short weeks from the radiology program! He went to the best program in our area and did very well. I am so proud of him, and I can’t wait until he gets a fabulous job in a hospital or doctor’s office!
My job is going wonderfully! I’ve been at Children’s Hospital for nearly 3 years. I’ve been at my current department for 6 months, and it’s going so well. My boss is amazing and so easy to work with (makes a huge difference). I love my coworkers, with the exception of one (but you’ll have that). I also love what I do, I don’t feel over-loaded, and the pace is just right. Not to mention, good benefits and pay.
We are both healthier and happier than ever! I have lost 20 lbs, we eat better, we spend a lot of time together. Our relationship is stronger, we laugh a lot, and we’ve been going out more – seeing our friends and what not. It’s easy to withdraw when your friends all have kids. We are making the best of it though!
Just yesterday, I spent the afternoon with one of my besties and her 2 little adorable girls. I didn’t feel sad or wistful at all. I just enjoyed them and had fun. I’ll be seeing my other bestie and her 2 little boys this weekend, and I CAN NOT WAIT! She’s also pregnant with # 3, but I’m thrilled for her.
So what….who’s this…is this me? haha. This is a long time coming and a lot of work with myself and my therapist though. I’ve been focusing on other things, making improvements, trying hard – and viola….I am kind of surprised to be in such a good place. Probably the best place I’ve been in for a long time. I’m happy and grateful 🙂 Might I still have a meltdown now and then? Yes, I am TTC after-all. 🙂