I logged onto Facebook this morning to see my whole news feed filled with cute little kids and their proud parents having fun for Halloween. I feel guilty for being jealous. I’m really very happy for all my friends, and it’s nice to see people who love their kids so much. Not everyone appreciates their children as much as most of my friends/family do.
It still stings though. It’s a reminder of what we may never have. I think the holidays will be especially hard this year. We’ve been through more fertility treatments and miscarriages than ever before – and we have nothing to show for it. Not to mention, we just found out in August that I may never be able to carry a child. It’s tough.
I’m sorry if any of my friends are reading this. I don’t want to be a jealous person. I pray for strength and for those ugly feelings to go away. I wouldn’t want anyone to feel that way about me if we ever have children. It’s just another part of the infertility demons we have to deal with.
Probably best to stay away from Facebook sometimes…