I can’t believe I am still pregnant at 4 wks, 5 days. Usually by this time, my tests are turning negative, my betas are going down to zero, and I’m waiting for AF. I’m so grateful.
My anxiety has been really rough the past couple days. Not just about being pregnant and fearing miscarriage, but about everything. Work, things I need to get done, etc. I guess it could be hormone related. I normally have some anxiety, but this is more intense.
I had a terrible nightmare the night before last that I started bleeding like crazy and miscarried. My dreams have been so strange and vivid. Last night I dreamed that my mom was sick, weak, and frail and in a wheelchair. That kind of freaked me out because she’s very vibrant.
I don’t have any new symptoms. It still doesn’t feel real. Mostly I feel really happy and excited, but there are times when I feel totally freaked out and worried. I just try to breathe and take it one day at a time. I hope this continues to go positively.
Oh, and my foot is improving! Thank goodness!! I was pretty stressed out about that, if you read my last post. It’s looking and feeling a lot better, but it still has some healing to do. I have to keep a close eye on it.