Today is my 29th birthday. I have mixed emotions about this day. For one, I’m getting older and my biological clock is ticking faster than most people’s. I hate to think my body is getting worse! I wish I could slow it down. I’m not looking forward to early menopause!
Today would have been my due date for IVF #2 angel baby. That loss was probably my most devastating out of all of them. It’s just that I put my body and soul through so much and believed so strongly it would work, that it’s twice as difficult to deal with than the others. As a reminder every month, I’m still paying a bill for the baby the will never be.
I’m thinking of getting a tattoo to comemorate what I’ve been through. I was thinking something with a butterfly, halo, heart, or wings? I’m not sure. It would be my first, so I’m kind of scared. 🙂 Any ideas?
I really can’t complain about today though. I have my loving husband, my health, a good job, friends & family, and many things to be grateful for. Hopefully this year will bring some great new wonderful things.