This past weekend was SO nice! I realized that I did more – socially and otherwise – than I’ve done for a long time. I guess I’ve been pretty down for awhile and not feeling up to doing a whole lot. I’m glad I crawled out from under my rock and lived a little 🙂
My mom and her husband came to visit on Saturday. We went out to dinner and chatted. It was fun. My mom sent me a text yesterday though, saying she sensed I was depressed. That kind of surprised me. I know I haven’t been myself, but I thought I was hiding it well! I actually thought I was acting pretty upbeat on Saturday when they were here. I guess moms always know though. (And I’m not trying to hide my feeling all the time or anything – I just don’t want to be a downer every single day).
Then yesterday, we went out for coffee with a real infertile couple! I met them through my friend in an online buddy group. They just moved to my city, so I gave them the scoop on fertility clinics and other places around town. They were so sweet and grateful for our help. There was something therapeutic about meeting in person – face to face – and discussing our struggles with infertility. Mostly, I’ve spoken to people online – which is great – but it’s different. I think we all felt good/empowered/understood/validated afterward. Plus, they haven’t really told ANYONE yet about their issues. We are open about our problems, but I remember what it felt like before we told people. It’s hard being alone in it all…..I STILL feel somewhat alone in it all.
Other than that, I felt like hubby and I spent some good quality time together, I read a book, I cleaned the whole house, and just kept busy. Maybe I’m on my way to doing better and living a more normal life again. 🙂