Thank you so much for all the thoughtful and heartfelt responses on yesterday's post. It means a lot to know I'm NOT all alone. No one wants to be the last infertile left standing. But at least I'm in good company.
I think I struck a few chords with certain people. I didn't mean to offend anyone, so I just wanted to apologize and explain a couple things.
Pregnant/Mommy bloggers: I'm sorry, I haven't been as supportive as I should. I always read, but feel hesitant to comment and unsure of what to say. It's mostly me being kinda selfish. I know your goals did not come easy to you, and you deserve support, too.
I actually haven't been commenting on a lot of people's blogs lately – pregnant or not. I feel bad for neglecting people. A) I have been mopey & depressed half the time, so I'm not sure how supportive and helpful I can be. And B) My computer is messed up and running soooo slooow, that it takes forever to comment. I'm making an effort to be around more and not isolate.
Adoptive mommies to be and IVF folks: I'm sorry that sometimes I forget that we still face many of the same emotions and problems, even though our journeys have changed a bit. I definitely have a lot of respect for you, your decisions, and your strength – I know it's not easy. I wish I had the courage to make the decisions you have.
My friends (infertile OR fertile): I hope it doesn't sound like I'm taking you for granted because I do have a lot of support. I know you want to be cautiously excited for me and not get my hopes up TOO high or give me false hope. Sometimes I might need some extra hope/excitement if you have it because mine is running low these days. It's really hard to say and do the right things all the time though. I can't expect that of anyone. I love you all though – whether you're a close friend or someone who randomly comments on my blog.
I don't know for sure what I will do or what the future will hold, but thank you for being there and making it all more bearable. I hope and pray we will all get where we need to be – hopefully sooner rather than later.
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