First, I would like to say thanks to everyone who commented on my recent post (I feel ugly). I’m so appreciative to have people who understand, but at the same time, I’m so sorry that any of you have to go through this.
I realized that I have been letting TTC consume me. I have neglected many aspects of my life. When you want something so badly, it takes priority. However, sometimes it can become unhealthy. I have a lot of trouble letting go – I’m kind of a control freak. But some things are out of my hands, as much as I hate to admit it.
I am happy to say that I’m feeling less funky today! I decided to create some goals to get back on track and hopefully get my life back. I know TTC/IF will always be prominent in my life. And I’m not a miracle worker – anyone who has been TTC long term, can’t just “turn it off”. But I’m going to do my best to stop neglecting important areas of my life – such as hobbies, social life, finances/savings, exercise/weight loss.
It will probably be quite awhile until we can pursue IVF again. In the meantime, I’d like to focus on enjoying life, be with my friends, save money/pay off bills, and be healthy. Although, I actually quit taking all my MILLIONS of supplements and vitamins. Can you believe it?! I’m tired of worrying about my egg quality and swallowing a gazillion pills all the time! I might resume taking just a FEW things once my upcoming bloodwork is done.
I got my package from Las Vegas!! It has all the vials for labs that we need to get a full panel of autoimmune/RPL testing (21 tests!). I plan to get my blood drawn on Wednesday (this coming week), then ship it overnight to a lab that is capable of running all of the tests. I need to check what’s covered under insurance. We plan to still go ahead, even if it’s not covered. We need answers. My labs would be $5,000-$6,000 and Andy’s would be $1,000-$2,000 if NOT covered at all by insurance. Fingers crossed that we don’t have to pay full price!!!