What did I really f***ing expect? That this time would actually be different? Stupid naïve me. My beta is 6…you read that right – 6.
I was 2 days early for my beta so I *suppose* there's the tiniest chance of it increasing enough when I go back on Saturday.
The nurse told me this would most likely not be a viable pregnancy. She sounded very grim. I hate that she said that without the doctor even reviewing it yet.
This is not fair. Everyone says to stay hopeful, but I don't know if I have any strength left. I'm tired of fighting so hard for every damn thing and getting nothing but bullshit thrown at me.
I have just cried and cried. Now I feel so angry…at myself and the world. Sorry for the rant. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.
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