I’ve been wishing and praying for my take home baby for quite awhile now. I can’t stop thinking about due dates or the days I lost my angel babies.
April 2010 was a particularly bad month. Angel baby # 2 was due on April 19, 2010. Then I actually miscarried angel baby #3 on April 19, 2010. April should be a happy month, because our anniversary is April 12.
All I can think about are the what ifs. We could be holding a child in our arms and already trying for another.
Now December is also a rough month because angel baby #3 would have been due on December 27, 2010…which is only a few days away. I think it would be a lot harder on me, if I wasn’t looking forward to our upcoming IVF cycle. I’m so thankful to have a distraction.
On each special date, I try to honor my angel babies in some special way. I will light a candle, say a prayer, or write a poem. I know that they were early losses, but they represent so much more to me.
I hope that very soon we’ll get our take home baby. “Until I can hold you in my arms, I will hold you in my heart.”
My prayers are with you ladies this holiday season. I know that many of you have experienced losses, as well. Keep holding onto your dreams.