At night I lie awake and think about the possibilities…

One day we will hear our baby’s heartbeat on the monitor, and I can only imagine that it’s the most beautiful sound in the world.
How amazing would it be to feel a life inside of me? Will it be a boy or girl?

The excitement of finding out the gender and picking out all the cute little clothes.
When our baby is born and hearing the first cry. Feeling things only a mother knows.

Holding that sweet precious miracle in my arms for the first time.
Seeing a smile, hearing a laugh. Staring into that baby’s eyes would be so divine.

Sleepless nights and poopy diapers…I want it all.
Watching our child grow and learn, talk, crawl.

We already love you, baby-to-be
Just waiting for this dream to become a reality…


Oh, the things people say…

The crazy things people say…and people have ACTUALLY said these things to me!!

1. Just Relax! (Oh…THAT’S what I was doing wrong!)
2. When the time is right… (Why? Is this a bad time?)
3. Don’t think about it so much.
4. Don’t try so hard.
5. You have time. (Umm, no I don’t. I’ll be going into early menopause, but I don’t really want to go into that with you!)
6. You’re so young! (Am I? What age is good for you then?)
7. Just adopt and then you’ll get pregnant. (Yeah, it’s that easy to get approved and THEN just pay out thousands of dollars.)
8. Just have sex on day 14. (Yep, someone actually told me that! In a perfect cycle, in a perfect world…I suppose I’m just one of the abnormal ones!)
9. Have you tried different positions? What about standing on your head after sex? (I have tried that actually, and it doesn’t work :-))

Here are some other non-nonsensical, insensitive comments…

1. Just get drunk and it’ll happen sooner or later!
2. Have you tried…(a turkey baster, special lube, etc, etc)?…That worked for my (cousin, neighbor, co-worker, sister, etc.)
3. Is it you or your husband? (Did you seriously just ask me that???)
4. Maybe your husband masturbates too much (!!!!)
5. There’s always next time! (Ummm yeah, after I pay out my life savings to my doctor, and wait for my body to calm down from all these stims…)
6. But, is it really all that stressful? It’s fun trying! (Well, yeah after you go through all of the drugs, getting poked and prodded every day, wait for your follicles to grow, pray that they are of the best quality, hope that you get at least some to fertilize and then of course to implant all the while trying to keep it real that it comes with no guarantees…yeah I would say that’s pretty stressful!)
7. It takes some people 10 years to get pregnant! (Oh, that’s so encouraging to know that it may take me even longer to conceive. And the time I’ve already been waiting has been a real breaze!)

And here are some things “frustrated” parents say…

1. At least you can spend your money on other things. (NO, really I can’t though. I’m broke!)
2. Well, enjoy going out and sleeping in because that’s all over when you have kids. (I want to wake up early with my kids…those mornings would make my whole day!)
3. You can take mine if you want and get your “baby fix” that way! (Like that will really satisfy all my needs!)

I did borrow a few of these from random posts I saw on the internet. It’s crazy how insensitive people are *rolls eyes*


Meds will be here Friday 10/1/10

My inventory sheets for the meds I’ll be taking includes:

Lupron injections – 20 units twice a day to suppress ovarian activity
Gonal F injections – 150 units in the AM and 225 units in the PM to stimulate ovarian activity
Novarel (hcg trigger) – To force ovulation
Minocin tablets – An antibiotic used around the ER/ET to prevent infection
Xanax tablet – To be taken before the ER (Egg Retrieval) for relaxation (I’ll also be receiving light anesthesia)
Zofran tablets – To be taken before the ER (Egg retrieval) for nausea (since I’ll be under sedation)
Progesterone in Oil injections – After the ET (Embryo Transfer) for luteal phase support


Why take Birth Control Pills (BCP)?

I’ve had several people ask why they would put me on BCP if I’m trying to get pregnant. It does seem odd, doesn’t it? There are 2 explanations for this. One reason is that BCP suppress your ovaries. After your ovaries have been suppressed for a short period of time, it is said that they will become more active when you stop BCP.

Certain hormones are also suppressed while on BCP, and when you stop taking them, your hormones kick into high gear. This is often why you hear of people getting pregnant right after stopping the pill. In fact, the chance of twin pregnancy is higher after taking the pill! Crazy, huh?!

I have to take 20 active BCP. Currently I am on day 9, so I only have 11 days to go! I’ll be starting Lupron in about 14 days, then Gonal F in about 16 days.

Lupron and Gonal F are injections that will act on my hormones which are already kicking into high gear, and make the hormones even stronger. This is how so many follicles, or eggs, are produced during an IVF cycle. I hope that makes sense! LoL 🙂